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Thursday, July 1st, 2010
12:26 am
Someday means never
Watched Knight and Day tonight. Part of it takes place in Austria and it made me long for old buildings, cobblestones, and foreign languages. I want to be among art and history and adventure.

Habitually I google plane ticket prices for various places, get excited, and check my bank account. Masochist. Every day that I put off travel brings me one step closer to being a sad 40-something who never goes anywhere except to visit relatives in a neighboring state: my worst nightmare.

I need to get the fuck out of school asap because society and the voices in my head say so, but I also really, really need to get the fuck out of this country. Studying abroad would not further my degree at all, but it's the only way I could afford to leave. One cannot get loans for doing awesome shit, after all.

This summer has been so stagnant - all grey skies and boredom. I just want to drive far, far away and get lost among the trees.

Working part time is really annoying. It leaves just enough free time unable to be filled but not enough to wander far.

Maybe it's the disappointment of summer so far, but nothing is going well. I'm reverting to a former self... saying stupid things, disliking my body, the horrible feeling of too much sleep and too little exertion.

In summation: Whine, whine, bother, bother.

Current Mood: restless
Sunday, June 13th, 2010
8:59 pm
Bored while possibly ruining dinner. <-- don't have the necessary tools to make rice (like, say, a skillet with a lid).

Summer may finally be beginning, which is perfect timing. Rachel and I are going on a one-day roadtrip tomorrow heading east. I have a hiking guide to Washington geology, so we're going to do at least one of the hikes.

All the graduates have made to reflect on school. I'm sick to being in the system, but these past three years have changed me so drastically for the better. I'm sort of glad not to be leaving - there is so much more growth to be done and friends to be found.

My monstrous cat is horny. He is tearing up paper, sulking, and attacking people. We assume it's pent up sexual frustration.

This summer I hope to teach myself calculus, the major bones (so, not every ear bone), and the geologic time scale. So far I have watched TV and slept a lot.

Current Mood: bored
Sunday, January 3rd, 2010
9:59 pm
Break has been fabulous, even when I'm bored to tears. The anxiety of school was gone for almost a month! Magic. I have had nightmares about chemistry class off and on throughout break, however.

What have I done. Finished almost two seasons of Veronica Mars, cleaned a lot, shot a Civil War-era shotgun (and was cold and bored watching others shoot), saw my dad, feared for my life while driving, bought awesome winter boots, spent Christmas day alone with not enough TV channels, ate too much meat, slept too much, started to set up a benefit concert all by myself, harassed the cat, ate too much chocolate, became slightly disenchanted with Indiana Jones, went to a Jason Webley concert, became a bridesmaid, and worked out at the gym once.

So, a lot of eating and sedentary activities.

I am anxious about school, unsatisfied with a lot of my friendships, afraid to be honest. It all boils down to confidence... which I thought I had, but apparently not.

Current Mood: anxious
Saturday, November 28th, 2009
9:05 pm
Winter Quarter Schedule
Math 115: MTWRF 10-10:50 AM
GIS in Geology: MWF 12-12:50 PM
Chem 122: MTWF 2-2:50 PM
Chem lab: Thursday 2-4:50 PM

Hmm. Thursday lab could be a bad idea. I can't start studying for any tests on Friday until 5 PM. And I have been studying a lot this quarter. It's ridiculous - I'll study for 7 hours, go to all the office hours, and still have at least one problem on the test that I can't answer with confidence.

Also, I hate chemistry. The best score I received was on the test most people did worse on - because it was partly about wavelengths, aka physics. Physics with calculus will probably suck, but at least it will be somewhat familiar territory.

Oh, yeah, I need to go declare.

Outside of school, life is fantastic. My Mitchell, my cat, and my apartment are all doing splendidly. Friends, for the most part, are great. I am so excited to be snowed in this winter and to make my own coco (after googling how to do so).

Yes, life is good. School is just a bit of a downer. I wish I had exerted myself in my easier classes so my GPA wouldn't be hurt quite so much by these harder classes, but whatever. It's too late for such thoughts.

Gotta go make a study guide for the math final, read two chapters for chemistry, and work on my geology final project. Or watch Gossip Girl season two.

Current Mood: busy
Friday, August 21st, 2009
7:49 pm
I love LiveJournal, because while pursuing my Friendslist, I managed to have windows open on the Wikipedia page for the history of eugenics, a debate of what to do if your mentally handicapped son gets a chick pregnant, and a Twilight dildo.

Updated by popular request... Yes the The Vamp retains hot and cold temperature. Toss it in the fridge for that authentic experience.

JUST IN TIME FOR HALLOWEEN! Who doesn't love those dark and mysterious vamps on the screen and in the books we all thumb through lustfully? That's what we thought. For those of us who fantasize about being spellbound and tantalized by the forbidden comes The Vamp. We promise this vamp won't be the only thing coming for you in the night.

The Vamp is a realistic form dildo based appropriately on our Sire's design but with a deathly pale flesh tone reminiscent of the new moon's glow. Since it's a Tantus toy, The Vamp is made from Tantus' own unique blend of 100% Ultra-Premium Silicone. Don't be surprised if this toy seduces you, its long sleek shaft and deliciously ridged head calling to you in the twilight. But don't save this for just nocturnal escapades, try taking our Vamp out in the sunlight and watch him sparkle.


I'm moving on Monday. Nt done packing yet, and I only have tonight. Procrastination is evil.

Current Mood: amused
Friday, August 7th, 2009
10:43 pm
Mmm, space
I visited Mitch in Endicott last week. Ran out of gas at a gas station in LaCrosse. The AAA operator took forever to find me, and couldn't until I read the name of the library/city hall/post office (one building) to her. Mitch found me first. We drove to Pullman and Moscow, ID. We watched people get drunk at the gun club and drive home. We explored a half-demolished house (half-demolished because a tractor rolled into it). I fell in love with The Boondock Saints and finished reading A Walk in the Woods by Bill Bryson. I captured a runaway dog three times, painted part of a house, and almost went crazy because of the flies.

Overall, it was a fun trip.

Moving at the end of this month. I'm so excited I want to buy kitchen supplies. Instead of bringing Gunther up to Bellingham, Mitch and I will be adopting Niko, my aunt's cat. He is currently in Oakland, CA. My mom gets the honor of bringing him up here... that should be a fun plane and car ride. I won't get him until after my aunt's wedding in late September, sadly.

This guy I wanted to be friends with (there are many people on the To Be Friends With list) randomly ran into me yesterday downtown. He knew my name, which is weird, and he told me not to get the swine flu vaccine. Apparently I should research the vaccine, because there is a conspiracy theory surrounding it. I was hoping he was making an obtuse Torchwood reference, but alas. If he reads this (there are many people who read my LJ anonymously), I hope he is satisfied that my laziness/frugality will keep me from getting the vaccine.

Do you know how much money and effort goes into putting on a concert with a even semi-famous band? It's insane. STAND is already trying to figure out our spring quarter benefit concert. The "benefit" part of the concert might just be the hardest part to work out, because students are cheap.

I thought I had something worthwhile to post about, but apparently not.

Current Mood: sleepy
Monday, July 20th, 2009
10:37 pm
My mum came up today. We ate a delicious meal at Skylarks with Rachel, toured the alpaca store in Fairhaven, and looked at the outside of my apartment. Also, my life is a tiny bit more complete now that I own The Elements of Style.

Jenny invited me to join a program at which she volunteers: Books to Prisoners. It's pretty awesome to read the letters from prisoners and try to fid them books. One guy wanted fantasy, vampires, business, art, and books about the Philippines. I found him a book about making money as an artist, a book with lots of pictures (for him to draw) of Southeast Asia, and The Vampire Lestat. It was the most perfect grouping of books I managed all night. The people who seem to run the Bellingham operation are a little weird however - one woman gave me a tour of the bookcases even though each is labeled. Oh well, it was pretty fun.

Jenny is going to invite to the next meeting of the Whatcom county fetish group. I'm quite excited to find out how different real life is from fiction.

Yesterday I walked to Boulevard Park and read for a few hours before being joined by Lacey and Jenny. We played frisbee and ate at Boundary Bay. This might be the best summer ever, productivity-wise. I'm actually out doing things. :)

Current Mood: tired
Saturday, July 18th, 2009
10:56 pm
In an explanation of race on the US census, the government says something magical:

People of Hispanic origin may be of any race and should answer the question on race by marking one or more race categories shown on the questionnaire, including White, Black or African American, American Indian or Alaska Native, Asian, Native Hawaiian or Other Pacific Islander, and Some Other Race.

I know a guy who is a member of some ancient tribe in Mexico - a Native Mexican, so to speak - and I wonder which race he chooses to be on any given day. The race of whoever oppressed his people most often, perhaps.

Current Mood: thoughtful
Thursday, July 16th, 2009
11:13 am
Stuff, stuff, stuff.

A while ago, my mom and I went on a roadtrip to Oregon to pick up our Great Pyrenees puppy. We ended up buying two - Kira and Falkor (a big white dog must be named after the big white dog dragon from the Neverending Story) - and transporting a third for another alpaca farm in Warm Beach. I played mother/vomit catcher in the back seat the whole way up with them. They're hellions to everyone else, but loooooove me. I am belated chronically this just to show off how goddamn cute they are.

Work is going extremely well. I work three days a week now. I am unofficially the favourite. My bosses have taught me how to do most of the activities on the farm while the other girls weed. Weeding is a bit therapeutic - is there a better feeling in this world than when you pull a nasty weed out with the entire root intact? Probably.

My bosses are also giving me so much food - they gave me all the leftover zucchini and summer squash from the farm stand on Tuesday. I gave two to a homeless guy on the street, three to my weird housemate, one to Jenny, and then went on an adventure to find the Bellingham Food Bank with Jenny yesterday. The food bank, which was quite a chore to find, took the veggies! I didn't know if they would.

Jenny and I also helped out at the community garden on campus in exchange for raspberries. I'm going to try to make this a regular thing... it's so nice to work outside.

Rachel and I tried to go swimming yesterday, but Rachel discovered the water was rather cold. We spent a hilarious 15 minutes trying to get her back on to the dock before I brought her a log on which to float to shore. Hopefully today will be more successful.

Ugh, I just want to move into my apartment already.
Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
2:06 pm
Canada's list of chemicals and contaminants that are either restricted or banned in Canada/European Union. Thought I would share, because the United States has banned none of these. Thanks, America.

I have been thinking a lot about women and fear lately. While not clinically paranoid, I am a very fearful person, and I want to know what caused this. Someone should do a study on women's fear by comparing fear levels between Americans and women in other MDCs. I am most interested in knowing if American society teaches girls that they are victims and are going to be victimized more than other Most Developed Countries. Obviously the statistics for this list of rape per capita is bullshit because the DRC isn't at the top. It's hard to know which country has the most instances of rape and which country has the most reports of rape.

"The Fear of Rape: A Social Control" (Riger, Gordon) does not seem to be online, but the abstract states:

A survey in three United States cities indicates that fear of rape is greatest among women who are elderly, belong to ethnic minorities, or have low incomes. Certain psychosocial and environmental factors are associated with high fear levels among women. Fear, in turn, determines the use of certain types of safety strategies.

I have only heard of elderly women being raped in The Democratic Republic of the Congo, so that is a very interesting result.

The Education Resources Information Center has a lot of interesting studies. College rape victims and re-victimization are apparently quite hot topics. One study found that almost 20% of undergraduate women experienced some type of completed sexual assault since entering college. Most sexual assaults occurred after women voluntarily consumed alcohol, whereas few occurred after women had been given a drug without their knowledge or consent. Holy shit.

Why do I never want to research fun things?

Current Mood: surprised
Saturday, June 13th, 2009
9:31 pm
Started my summer harvesting job and my period today! I weeded the broccoli patch and transplanted many kinds of lettuce. It was good - not so great that it reaches "fun," but I am looking forward to Tuesday when we harvest for realz. The six hours of my day spent there got be 60 bucks, which is lovely. No tax! And as far as I am aware, being a full time student and making less than whatever the minimum is, I don't have to file taxes either. Hurrah! Will check with me mam on that one, just in case.

An alpaca gave birth today, and I sort of got to name the baby. Mum and Martin are so picky about their ridiculous names (we have alpacas named Sherry's Song and Splash of Ice - I could never come up with anything so bizarre). Currently the first name will be Nero, but they can't agree on what to add on, because one name is not enough.

Current Mood: pleased
Wednesday, June 10th, 2009
7:47 pm
I received an email from Macys saying I should set an interview appointment for a stocker position, but there are no time slots to choose from, so the email means nothing. :p But if this works out, I shall stay in Bellingham. Don't know how I will entertain myself, though.

Signing the lease agreement for ze apartment tomorrow! *dances* Also have my last final tomorrow, but it's no big deal. My prof did some calculations and apparently I can get a B in the class even if I get a D on the final, which is nearly impossible. Biggest problem is that the final begins at 8 AM, how disgusting.

Classes for fall:
Geology 211 lab: Tuesday, Thursday, 8-9:50 AM
Math 114: MTWRF, 10-10:50 AM
Chemistry 121: MWRF 1-1:50 PM, lab Tuesday 11-1:50 PM

Taking it slow that quarter because chemistry sucks and Math 114 has a daunting reputation. Tuesdays will be rough.

Current Mood: cheerful
Monday, June 8th, 2009
5:49 pm
Stuff and Stuff
Application for ze apartment has been accepted! Mitchell and I have a home. Move in will be in August, and I can bring Gunther. :D

Start my harvesting job next Tuesday. It's currently the only job I have, sadly. Haven't decided if I'm going to stay in Bellingham or go back to Camano. There are pros and cons to both.

Mitch and I saw Patrick Wolf on Friday and it was stunning. He is magic. I will attempting to make a necklace similar to his.

I was going to make a long post, but Sarah is in my ear and thus I have no concentration. Oh well.
Saturday, May 9th, 2009
7:58 pm
A very productive day
Woke up at 10 AM to be interviewed/look around the organic farm for which I wanted to harvest. I got the job, and the place is so cute! Lake Cavanaugh Farm in Mount Vernon. :) $10-$12/hour, 9 AM-5 or 6 PM, Tuesdays and maybe a little work on Saturdays. That leaves a LOT of room in my schedule for another job.

I applied for a paid position at Purrfect Pals, and if I get that I'll be moving back in with me mam over the summer, because commuting to Arlington from Bellingham for minimum wage would not be worth it. The time it takes to get to Arlington from Bellingham is 49 minutes, and it's 48 miles away. Compare that to 43 minutes from Camano Island, which is only 22 miles away. Stupid Island.

I also currently sell Cutco cutlery, and it's extremely part time, mostly because I don't know very many married homeowners over 30 in this state. :P The pay is good, however.

I think I discovered the name of my perfect job yesterday - "wildlife conservationist." It combines animals and saving the planet and travel and animals, without a biology degree! I very much dislike biology since high school biology class. One problem with the whole wildlife conservation thing: the major is only offered at two universities in Washington... WSU and UW. One is too big and the other is too small (- minded). Although maybe the recent round of gay-bashing at WSU will spur the non-idiot there to take action. God, I love big ol' liberal Bellingham.

Math is going very well this time. I feel as if I'm actually learning.

Aaaaand... I'm experimenting with vegetarianism. It's going pretty well so far, except so many vegetarian dishes have black beans in them. Or are salad. This experiment is causing me to eat a lot more Italian, which is maybe why my desperate desire to get the hell out of America keeps leading me to the idea of moving to Italy. Gotta keep an open mind, of course - there's also Ireland, Scotland, Germany, France, Spain, the Netherlands, Scandinavia, New Zealand, and Canada to consider. Some are doing better than others, but all are better than the US in terms of life expectancy, infant mortality, gender empowerment, and many other measurements of which I cannot think.

Now I must shower, because I just had an awesome work out. Worked arms, legs, abdomen, and lungs (running really works one's lungs when one does not often do it) in 20 minutes.

Current Mood: pleased
Saturday, April 4th, 2009
11:49 pm
Mitchell and I will be living together next year. He left the planning up to me, because I really, really enjoy planning and research. We scouted places Saturday and hopefully will go inside the promising looking ones Tuesday. I have an idea of furniture and such, because I'm a little over-excited, and hopefully we will choose a place that allows cats so Gunther can live with us! That would be lovely, as long as he doesn't miss going outside. He certainly will not be wandering the streets of Bellingham.

I want to build a chaise lounge this summer with Martin. I hope by telling as many people as possible, it will happen. Martin has built furniture before, and maybe I can get Powers Boothe and other craftsmen involved. For free or a ludicrously small fee.

My classes seem quite fantastic this quarter. Developmental psychology and population issues are very interesting subjects. My teacher for math is also really competent/nice.

My birthday concert this year is Bloc Party, and I'm going solo. Strangely, I'm fine with that. The only bummer is going to be paying for gas/parking and standing in line alone.

I have started to walk to school every day, and Mitchell and I are going to exercise together every Thursday. This will hopefully lead to positive habits for summer and beyond. :)

Patrick Wolf's new album is coming out June 2 and Placebo's is released June 8. This summer hopefully will be AMAZING with both bands in the US, but more likely they will come in the fall/winter, because America is unappreciative of their brilliance. :P If either makes it to the west coast in summer, I totally want to stalk them through a few states.

Current Mood: excited
Tuesday, March 24th, 2009
4:06 pm
In the Poconos, Pennsylvania right now. We are heading back to New York tonight. I'm visiting my dad for all of Spring Break. Hopefully going to the American Museum of Natural History tomorrow - it will be my first time venturing into the city alone. I'm worried about the subway. Apparently very few trains go to my dad's stop, so getting back might be troublesome.

What has happened. I am in mourning for the end of the Monsters class. Man, that was fucking awesome. I learned so much in that class. I made a fantastic diorama of Hansel and Gretal's forest/gingerbread house. It was totally badass. I seem to have done quite well on my English final, despite panicking through the whole thing because my mind was so foggy from the pneumonia.

Oh, yeah, the fucking pneumonia. I've been sick for all of March and still have a cough/lower energy. I had to stop working on La Cage because I was so ill, which sucked. I don't know if the theatre kids cared or not - I hope bailing for a legitimate reason doesn't cause any negative feelings toward me. I'm still hoping to keep doing theatre while getting a degree in geology.

I dropped my math class because it was bumming me out/grade wasn't going to be as high as I want. This was a good idea, because my GPA for this quarter is 3.83! Highest I've reached in university... I'm very excited.

Things that have also happened: Darfur Benefit Concert! It went very well, Rachel and I made friends with a couple of the bands. A Bandaid's life doesn't seem that bad after all. ;)

There is a Sonic Drivethru 15 minutes from our house. This is not good for my health.

Hopefully Jenny and I will be taking her mind off Raz by going to a Lily Allen concert on his birthday. She should be a fun performer, I just hope Jenny keeps it together.

I'm taking Developmental Psychology, Math, and Introduction to Population Issues next quarter to finish off the GURs not covered by my major. It will be weird to not take a science or theatre course.

My excitement over my grades is what brought me back to LJ. I don't really have much to say, although it was a very busy quarter. Perhaps it is time for yogurt.

Current Mood: pleased
Thursday, February 12th, 2009
9:32 pm
Sergeant Howie: But they're NAKED!
Lord Summerisle: Naturally. It's much too dangerous jumping through fire with your clothes on.

The original Wickerman is some fucked up shit, and I highly recommend it.

Current Mood: amazed
Tuesday, February 10th, 2009
8:32 pm
Free Film Wednesday
STAND (Student Anti-Genocide Coalition) and Students for Slum Doctor Program present:

One Night, One Voice: Help End Violence Against Women in Darfur

A short film on the violence against women in Darfur, Sudan. The men, women, and children of Darfur are the victims on the 21st century's first genocide, and the assaults on women are truly heartbreaking.

Students for Slum Doctor Program will also be showing a short film about violence against women in Kenya.

STAND will be there to tell you how you can help end the violence! There will be a Q&A after both films.

This is a FREE event taking place in the Communications Facility 115 at 7 PM, Wednesday.

7 PM!
Be there.

Current Mood: excited
Saturday, February 7th, 2009
10:02 pm
Has anyone ever said you look like a llama?
So I have a fever. Temperature of 100.3, to be exact. I might have strep throat, since this was my favourite illness as a child, and I have a few white spots in the back of my throat.

This sucks mostly because of the obvious but also because I have a math exam on Wednesday and need to be in peak condition. And there is no ice cream in the house.

Real boys have failed to be even the least bit sympathetic to my plight, so now I must turn to James McAvoy for comfort. Thank you, TV, for the month of free Starz and HBO. New episode of Flight of the Conchords was a pleasant surprise.

Current Mood: sick
Monday, February 2nd, 2009
6:35 pm
A little poetry from me to you
You know every once in a while
I shoot the breeze I spend my time
I talk about silly things
I like to talk about Jesus Christ
'Cause I wonder what would happen if he passed you by
Would you be scared?
Would you believe in him?
Would you bust your asses to get him institutionalised?
Well, I bet he'd be cool
I bet he'd be damn good looking
I bet that he smelled divine
I'm not talking about Calvin Klein's Obsession
Just one of those people smell good all the time
There's no reason why

What would he wear?
Would he wear Tommy Hilfiger?
Or prefer Urban Outfitters?
You know what, I don't think so
Well, I bet he liked Gaultier
But you'd never find him in it
Yeah, I bet he liked Gaultier

Lord, I need your protection, spend some time in my direction
I need your protection, spend some time in my direction
I need your protection, spend some time in my direction

You know every once in a while
I shoot the breeze I spend my time
I talk about silly things
And tonight I'd like to talk to you about Jesus Christ
'Cause I wonder how we'd deal if he just passed you by
I bet he'd be a star
I bet my Star Wars figures he would be a movie star
A Quentin Tarantino Next Big Thing
Prima donna, then he'd appear on Oprah
But you know what? I don't think so

Could you imagine him hanging Piccadilly Circus
Time Square, the walk of fame
At Christie's he could easily become a regular
Do you know what? I don't think so
I bet my speeder bike he'd turn his back on all of that

Lord, I need your protection, spend some time in my direction
I need your protection, spend some time in my direction
I need your protection, spend some time in my direction

Some people have just got it
You know like standing next to Elvis Presley
Well then multiply that feeling by 1 million
And you know what I'm talking about
Well I'll bet he was cool
Man, I bet that cat was so damn good-looking, baby

Current Mood: contemplative
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